Still Remember That Moment Of Joy

 I'm a person who has few friends, to be more precise, no friends.

I am a person who is tired of maintaining feelings. When I see some friends here, I may feel that real friendship does not need to be maintained and can last forever, but in fact, some real friendship also needs to be maintained for a long time.

Many years ago, I met a girl, she is slow heat type, I am fast heat type, later because of some learning reasons, we live together.

At that time, I used to sleep in on weekends, so I didn't have breakfast. She had to eat three meals on time. Every time at the weekend, she would get up early, and then go out to buy vegetables and cook breakfast. Until the end of this process, she would knock on my door and let me get up for breakfast. I didn't feel too happy at that time.

My feedback to her is naturally to wash dishes and provide emotional value. We are basically very happy together most of the time. She even said with a serious face to me one day, "I'm so happy with you. What if I die of laughter one day?".

Later, when I talked about my first impression, she felt that I was too lively at that time. I thought she was gentle and beautiful, and she was too attractive. Later, with the synchronization of each other, we gradually became the people who could laugh at each other.

At that time, I always felt that the friendship of adults should be the care and concession of each other's emotions, rather than the entanglement and persistence of small things.

Once when she was ill, I asked her what she wanted to eat, and she told me not to use it. Then on my way home, I suddenly wanted to eat pancakes. I thought she didn't eat them, and I brought her one.

When I got home, I told her that I had brought her pancakes and fruits. She ignored me and got angry. Later, I sent a long message saying that I wanted to know why（ This is my first time to ask about friendship after high school

Then she told me that she didn't think I could take care of people at all. When I was sick, she brought other people pancakes instead of porridge. At that time, I was also speechless, but I would pay attention to these problems after communicating with her.

Later, I have a deep memory that we saw a movie together, Han Geng starred in "former three". At that time, she was still immersed in the pain of lovelorn. After the movie ended, I saw her reddish eyes. I didn't want to make the atmosphere too awkward, so I said, "you just won't cry behind my back, ha ha.".

Of course, after I finished, the atmosphere was normal, she was no longer sad, and we went home in the fight（ Now I can't help thinking about whether my behavior at that time was a bit like a straight man in love

Tiktok spent three months together, studying together, eating a movie together, make complaints about the sound of shaking, and secretly attend the graduation ceremony of Nanchang University MBA. We watched the program holding the thermos cup together with the shortcomings of the teaching method of Tucao teacher.

At that time, she was beautiful, gentle and interesting. I also thought our friendship would last forever. She would be the shining one among my few friends.

Three months later, I moved out of my house. Before moving, there was a very small conflict. I had forgotten what it was, but at that time, I didn't want to bend over to solve it as before.

Since then, we have had very little contact. Later, when I got an opportunity, I tried to take the initiative to retrieve the friendship I once cherished. At that time, I was just ready to work and I was very idle. We contacted again for a period of time. Every day, we would share our daily life and exchange gifts on festivals.

This relationship has been very stable until I went to Shenzhen, and my work began to be extremely busy. At that time, my work had completely filled my life, and there was no daily life to share. Driven by time, we returned to the original state of alienation.

I've also thought about why I've come to this stage. It's probably because of the different needs of each other and the different directions. I'm not strong enough.

Therefore, friendship in a moment also has a little shadow of love, sometimes can only bring us a moment of happiness, after a short time, the friendship will fade with time, but once had enough.